Man, it’s been awhile since I’ve posted.
Why?
It’s simple, really. I’ve felt like a sham lately… looking back on old posts I was jumping around in what I was doing, one week I’m back to powerlifting and the next I’m focused on Strongman. However, something hit me today; I’m not a sham – I’m just chronically ill and sometimes I need to readjust my workouts for my body.
There is no yellow brick road that will take me to the wizard to fix me.
I’m broken. The great part of that is… well, we are all broken.
I’m not going to say that I’ll never lift heavy again and my life will always be cardio and the occasional (but I wish more often) yoga; but my current state is cardio.
I’ve said before how much I hate cardio, but I had to find a way to love it. To thrive in it! I loved lifting heavy, I loved strongman – but my body didn’t – in order to love cardio I needed to tailor it to how I loved powerlifting/strongman.
I loved the sport because it was against me, MY PRs and MY accomplishments. Winning was great, too; but it was always more about being able to lift more than I could the previous week… always growing. I’ve slowly come to realize that I needed to attribute that to my cardio, or I was going to continue to hate it; continue to hate going to the gym & continue to feel like a failure.
So I focus on PRing with my cardio.
I’m rocking it!
I’m even focused on trying new machines that I never thought I would like to mix up the cardio… no need to sprint for the whole 40 minutes! I break it up to keep it fresh and more enjoyable. Yesterday, I sprinted and biked! What?!? It’s like I don’t even know myself anymore!
I might not be heavy lifting but at least I’m enjoying my workouts again and I’m longer hoping for sparkly red shoes to take me away from the cardio…
I know I can’t be the only one struggling with this, so instead of hiding – I will start sharing. It’s hard when you can’t do the things you love; the things you are good at; because you have a body who just can’t do them. If you are going through this as well, you are not alone; I promise you…