Lifting with Lupus

Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday. She would have been 61, instead her life was cut short. We were not close, life came very hard to her and she couldn’t escape the stronghold of her family which ultimately led to her demise. I have no contact with her side of the […]

Sometimes I struggle, sometimes I fall… but I always get ...

Let’s talk about stress, baby Let’s talk about you and me Let’s talk about all the good things And the bad things that may be…. Let’s talk about stress. Having a disease that flares from stress, occasionally means weekends that are spent in bed trying to recuperate. Stress = flares, […]

Stress = sick, sick + stress = more stress = ...

I said yes to the dress, well; make that I clicked yes to the dress. Inputted my measurements and my dress is in the tailoring phase! Though I have ordered the dress…. To my measurements on 8/30…. That is NO excuse to not keep cutting. It’s my wedding day, it’s […]

I’ve said yes to the dress! Now to make ...

I weighed myself this morning and I didn’t cry. I weighed myself this morning and I didn’t get angry. I weighed myself this morning and I haven’t yet obsessed over it. I weighed myself this morning and I didn’t freak out. I weighed myself this morning and became determined… The […]

Learning to love myself…. with a mind that hates ...

I am a people pleaser. I am an apologizer. I am that person who goes out of their way to make sure that everyone else is ok before I think about myself. These traits seem selfless. But I’ve come to find how actually selfish they are – to myself. How?! […]

I’m sorry… Are you ok in there?!? The selfish relationship ...

I WANT CANDY! Seriously, it’s only day 2 without candy. Cold turkey quitting the sugar smack! It’s driving me crazy! The average American has 152 pounds of sugar a year, 22 teaspoons a day! The AHA says that consumption should stay around 9 (37.5g) teaspoons a day for men and […]

Candy in the morning time, Candy in the hot sunshine, ...

I tumbled off the lifting wagon, and fell into a cardio pit… It was fun, kinda; it taught me that I can do long periods of cardio without dying. Which I really assumed would happen with extended cardio! I needed a break, I needed to reevaluate, I needed to find […]

Reevaluated = Reawakened, Renewed, Regenerated…

Breathe. Just Breathe. Like every girl from my time I remember when Drew Barrymore uttered these words in Ever After before walking down the aisle to her happy.  She said this in a defiant, Just Breathe – everything is going to be ok. The calming nature of breath. When you […]

The power of one breath. Breathe. Think. Enjoy. ...